Sunday, December 5, 2010

Oct. 24, 2007 and Oct. 25

12:07am
God, what is the truth. Was Andy just pulling on my heart strings or did he really mean any of the things he said. My heart is just so sad right now. I just want that best friend back. I want my Andy back.

8:18pm
It was so good to talk to Andy a little bit today. I think he is overwhelmed by the decisions we need to make. He's trying to take them head on and well I'm avoiding them. Shame on me. From the sound of it. He wants us up there but he doesnt want to be there anymore. Today I had the random thought of moving to California. I'd have my sisters but thats too far away from mom for me. However, Andy was talking about wanting to go to the beach today, asking about the weather this time of year. I dont know what he is thinking.

10-25-2007
I'm stupid thats all. Stupid for a boy. Not just any boy. THE boy. THE Man. My man. (sorta) My Andy.

I talk about him way too much.

Andy is hanging out with the girls again. and I think I am okay with that. I trust him. I do. I dont think he'll hurt me like that. Today he was talking about how I make him happy. He's considering moving to Florida seriously this time. I think that would be wonderful. I jsut want our little family together. In ND or here in Florida. Shoot even in Oklahoma. It doesnt matter. We just need to pray about it.

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